you're like an addictive drug i just can't kick. i've tried. oh trust me i've tried. but all it takes is one moment of weakness for everything to come flooding back in. and so i stay away, i try to stay strong. in a bid to hold on to that sanity that i just got a hold of. i can't fall back into the same loop again. that tape has been on repeat for so long, that i'm rather sick of watching it all play out again. its tiring. and yet at the same time comforting.

that's life isn't it.